Empowerment is such a big word lately. It feels as it is. Self reliance, internal power, fortitude and strength that comes from within is in essence the full fruition of personal ambition to be, do and live the way you desire.
I was asked a 4 years ago if I felt powerful. I didn't comprehend exactly what I was being asked. Depending where you sit on your life journey - you could answer that from a few different perspectives.
I felt my answer was, no. I was not within my full power and that was not my goal but it certainly tweaked my curiosity. As I ponder what it would feel like being within myself in a silence of strength and believing I could get what I desired most and it was mine for the taking.
How does one Master their own life? Many would have opinion about that and what it would look and like feel within their own existence I say with confidence that I have stepped into the understanding of Mastering my life. I also have learned that for one to Master their life, they must see things with no glasses on. No filters or corrective intervention. It must be from your own self perspective and with a focus of a clear heartfelt direction that only comes from within...a very deep intrinsic space that only your soul takes its direction from.
I had the gnawing urge and clear direction from the biggest part of who I am to be authentic and to no longer "deal with" or "be in" situations that was not honouring to who I am at the very core and heart of my eternal being. I am learning to Master my Life, and the road is not smooth at times but when and only when you are ready....you will take it and boy oh boy you wont be disappointed!
6/3/2012 0 Comments
I have been noticing many subtle things as each days passes but when you get side tracked by a mac truck you have no choice but to pay attention to what is being presented to you. So clear time and make space for if you choose not to do the lessons, it will only keep coming back in different ways and flavours. What a roller coaster ride this year has been and the one biggest nugget that i have taken and owned is that when you surrender to to the deeper meaning and understanding behind (or underneath) a situation you start to smell, see and feel the innate reasoning and wisdom. It occurs after you feel what you are meant to feel in order to make the shift. For me it's like a light switch quite literally (I either wake feeling different - relieved actually, or a shift in emotion sweeps over me) - it is my higher self that I feel allows me to flick it off but only after I have been in the dark to learn my lesson - the lessons usually are not obvious, the big ones have been building up until you are ready for change and then...and only then will it appear. So if you are the type to ignore the little hints that the universe provides and you decide to sweep them under the carpet and pretend they are gone....just wait - because they will come back in other ways until they knock you up-side the head to get your attention.
The feeling of knowing it has passed is so engrained in me that when that energy comes and is present I really feel it. Feels like I am looser, freer, lighter and I have more joy within, feeling happier and more content. It releases inhibitions and asks you to do more, see more, and feel more! When you are awakened and aware you will get it! Really get it!
So how do you surrender? How do you see in a different light? so-to-speak...
It is about really understanding how you feel and witness and be aware of what you are thinking that is creating your feelings. As far as a particular situation or scenario and how you perceive it plays an intricate roll in your experience. I found myself desiring to hibernate and it almost became a mind game of thinking vs. doing and honouring what my experience is. If I pushed it aside it did not go away and I felt heavy and uninspired. When I gave myself time away and didn't buy into what others' expectations were of me then and only then did I gain some personal perspective and was more able and available to assist myself. At times it felt like I was anti-social or as some would think 'depressed'. Well I knew that not to be the case but if my spirit was not strong it could have dragged me to the dark depths of immobility. I could have gotten sucked into ego and felt sorry for myself, what good would that do? In that action you are stating to the universe that you are not enough and you want attention from others ....as I created time and space for me to breath within my own energy that is when clarity and shifting occurred. I talked myself into the mindset that I AM ENOUGH and have the power within to get past it. I began to feel more like myself and slowly desired to do the normal things I do. I felt so compelled to just take off to clear my head and heart...instead I surrendered and had many discussions with my Guides, God and Angels. Many different feeling energies ran through me such as extreme chills and cold...right to the very core and bones. I asked for my Guides to help release this energy in the most benevolent way. As I requested that from the depths of my soul things felt better. I spent any spare moment (which i had to create as I run my own business and have two children and I also assist my Mother with her situation (dementia) it was a juggling act at times). I would forget many things and mix time up, waking up at 3 and 4 in the morning and all the while setting the intension that I am well, whole and on a clearing journey that I will sort out with the help of my Angels (in spirit and here on earth). I am not one to dive into discomfort and talk about it....what I am about is self empowerment and taking a step back to see the full view. It is about taking full responsibility for my own experience and really owning it. Yes, I shed many tears, sometimes out of know-where at times - they felt like a clearing and that is how i percieved it - as just that - an energy clearing - pent up emotions that needed time and space to be let go. I meditated, went for walks, sang and gave myself permission to just be (as i have the tendency to not just sit around..I do because there is much to do in a household).
Its out character for me to hibernate and ask to be alone...I did so with an understanding that everyone around me will support that. My hunger was little at best, I was running on fumes...I would eat bites of good food and supplements to sustain my physical body and was drinking a lot of water and herbal teas. I had one good friend who i was able to speak to about my whole journey which I am so grateful for. Even then I was clearing things about our relationship that was just under the surface.
The two biggest opportunities and lessons I walked way with:
We are our own masters and when we completely honour our truth our outer world will reflect and support it. Each minute, hour, day week we will SEE more clearly and feel connected and open up more to awareness of how we work, how things really are and with that knowledge comes great power for self. (I accomplished this with talking myself into many things and out of many things) but always keeping the awareness of who I really am. I am a wonderfully inspired spark of God (which everyone is) and I am here to make a difference in how people view themselves and our world/universe. I am that I am!
Second is everything is always temporary...especially the circumstances that bring us the most opportunity to learn (i do not wish to say challenges or problems - to me they are opportunities to grow).
Pay close attention to all the words and thoughts that form in your mind and on your tongue...we are fully responsible for them. They do create our existence.
Another big nugget is that it is wise to be aware of how much energy we intend on giving something - remember if you ask for a lot, be prepared energetically to give just as much and more (with your heart). I will definitely expand on this learning and show a deeper meaning and understanding next time! Until then....much love and light....we are never alone! Pull in the love! xo
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